Insanity

It is not the thing that I am capable of doing or the things I have done that make me appear to be insane; but the fact that I can't help myself. I can't seem to stop what I want to be doing.

Desire

I can't tell the difference between desire and lust or want and need. Where does selfishness end and greed begins? When I desire something, do I really want it or is it just an act of having it?

Temptation

When does lust turn into manipulation? I want someone I can't have. It irritates the hell out of me, yet can't help myself to stop the desire. Tried to switch vices, but then she haunts me.

Ambivalence

Right now, I am actually feeling and experiencing it. I've been coping with two emotional extremes – the fear of love – the lack of it in my life. It's an awful, lonely truth about myself.

Happiness

It is not based on beauty, material wealth, standing in the community, but rather the love one gives and receives. Happiness is not a state of mind, but a way of living. Happiness is service.

I Am All In!

I have been dealt many hands, some good, some bad. But I am still in the game, which I choose to play everyday. The sheer terror, the excitement of life is what makes this game worthwhile.

Entitlement

I deserve and should have everything that I want; just because of who I am and what I've gone through. There aren't any questions “why” or “when”; but how soon the Universe is to deliver?

Psychic

Often I wish I to know what the future brings and how my life is to be; as I know what the past has been and cannot go back to where I once was. It is today that I am lost without a direction.