Temptation

When does lust turn into manipulation? I want someone I can't have. It irritates the hell out of me, yet can't help myself to stop the desire. Tried to switch vices, but then she haunts me.

Ambivalence

Right now, I am actually feeling and experiencing it. I've been coping with two emotional extremes – the fear of love – the lack of it in my life. It's an awful, lonely truth about myself.

Happiness

It is not based on beauty, material wealth, standing in the community, but rather the love one gives and receives. Happiness is not a state of mind, but a way of living. Happiness is service.

I Am All In!

I have been dealt many hands, some good, some bad. But I am still in the game, which I choose to play everyday. The sheer terror, the excitement of life is what makes this game worthwhile.

Entitlement

I deserve and should have everything that I want; just because of who I am and what I've gone through. There aren't any questions “why” or “when”; but how soon the Universe is to deliver?

Psychic

Often I wish I to know what the future brings and how my life is to be; as I know what the past has been and cannot go back to where I once was. It is today that I am lost without a direction.

Theory

To be called a man, living a life of character is not to be entitled to what is his or to the things he desires; but to question what he can give away. It is in the giving that he finds himself.

Fearless

Absence of fear is not replaced by courage or bravery, but rather the surrender of powerlessness. Fearlessness is not to be supreme to what are afraid of, but to allow God in for the battle.

Life

Problems are a never ending answer to other problems. When I think I have a successful solution, it turns out to be another fuckin' problem. If it is not one fucking thing, it's a fucking another.

It Works Both Ways

One cannot make the heart feel what it can't/won't/doesn't. It is lost without hope and faith. Its goodness comes from the spirit residing within. To get the desire one must give it.

unrequited

a memory of a scar, her picture in my mind does not fade. I look through the window of another, she is inside. her smile, the laugh, tears drowning the passion out of my dead heart. I cry.

FEAR: Face Each Action Rigorously

There are many acronyms for fear. I am tired of fear, so I am doing something about it! Running away does not help as in fuck everything and run. Fear will paralyze.

Two Steps Forward One Step Back

Life is not a wall, but a treadmill of illusion. The faster one runs, further away the destination appears. The journey is littered with many paths, only one is for you.